Thick Love

The first night we kissed

I found myself split in two

1.

I am the skeleton of a woman who has never been loved

Right

I am a trusting heart in the shaky hands of sirens

I am love so vast is overcomes

It supernovas

And crashes into itself

I am

Here

But she

Is gone

And I know what alone is

I know a night so black

It speaks

I know a darkness so thick

It sings

I am the shed skin of a wolf

Howling at the moon marked at your door

Looking for her body

Looking for a way to hold

Again

2.

I cannot stop looking at the creases in your palms

With my eyes closed

I can feel the way they leave lines on my arms

Hips

Back

You

Mapping me with your every move

Show the places to be loved

Point out the potential

Here I come hurling myself in your direction

breaking my body into a thousands crashing waves at your ankles

you like the way  my water crashes over you

I thought that meant I could stay

Could be held

Tight

3.

iʻve been trying to find a way to bring these two bodies back together

been feeling like something significant was lost in the shatter

Most nights

I lie Awake

Wondering

How to steal the night from your hair

Just a piece of the darkness

To cover my body

To feel like I might still belong to something that will wrap its whole self around me

Its been so long since you’ve been here

And so long

Since I’ve believed you were coming back