You seemed normal at first
At birth
Until I realized
I’ve never seen someone as transparent as you
White
I’d call you albino
But you’ve got eyes too blue to ever be imagined red
I don’t understand you
If
There were some sort of
Crazy anorexic blinding cartoon super hero
She’d probably be you
But she’d have to be beautiful
I miss you
I called you the white gazelle
But only in the back of my mind
To afraid to admit your beauty
Far too skinny to be a sheep and too fair to be black
You danced across kitchen floors during thanksgiving dinners
I wonder
Have you ever looked at your skin and saw sparkles
Like a Mormon women’s description of vampires
Beautiful beyond imagination and far too masochistic
Have you Ever stared at your wrists to see more than canvases
Seen beyond the plunging ability of fingertips
Genny
Have you ever lived the life outside of your surreal autobiographical comic book strips
Ever forced yourself to see how many people around you love you
Instead of writing your own destruction
I suppose
Sometimes the hero doesn’t live
Genny
You are odd
But only in the way I can’t understand you
And
We are blood
First cousins since birth 8 months apart
I feel a longing to protect you
Turn your life into something to enjoy instead of endure
But im not interesting enough to turn into a drawing
Not strong enough to have readers follow my stories
I am normal
In every horrible way one could be
Mediocre
But you
You are different
The reason for your own self-destruction
Never fit in to our family properly
Your pieces were too complex
You were amazing
But cursed with mirrors that never did you justice
They say vampires don’t have reflections
And I wonder
Is that why you never saw yourself the way the rest of us did
A princess.
"They say vampires don’t have reflections
ReplyDeleteAnd I wonder
Is that why you never saw yourself the way the rest of us did"
I loved this.