Day 540:

i've decided
your silence
is a broken mirror
something unlucky
and beautiful
still distorted
something i cannot understand
the way i wish to

i deleted your phone number
knowing
how easily it could be found
somewhere else
didnt have the heart to tell you
that i spent hours hovering over
goodbye letters and actions
things that would put oceans between us here
not that we ever needed the pacific to show us where our cracks are
how broken we seem at dusk
when the sunset shines through us
so beautiful still
in the morning
when we've forgotten the way home
remembered returning was the better thing to do
but forgot anyways

i dont have the energy to finish this now.
fail fail fail