New Years Resolutions

New Years Resolutions

1.

pull honest words from your throat

like teeth from cold gums

before they have rotten

hollowed

and decayed

give the best of yourself in sincerity

take a scalpel to the parts of you that refuse truth

find an ocean

Saturated in salt

to heal the wounds

2.

Forgive Brooklyn

her dark and empty smile

hips of her street corners, too lose

dim eyes batting over you

the tap dance of gunshots at noon

forgive the way none of her body knew how to embrace

the ocean of your skin

how she refused to hold you

3.

Forget Manhattan
her blistering skyline

The lights you chased

but never touched with more than your imagination

hold,

then release all the dreams

left unmade

4. 

let go of the shards of love that will not be

remember the woman who was and isn’t anymore

she should not stay frozen

in an evil masquerade

remind yourself that any lie can defeat any love

if given the breath

do not

give it the breath

5.

write every day

listen more than you speak

chase peace

6.

be the woman

your woman

wants to come home to

make home, for two

cultivate the piko

your center shared

worship the pō between brown bodies

7. 

Exercise the muscles of vulnerability daily

Find the space between an honest leap

And insecurity

Offer your heart suspended

Fight the desire to be bound

Trust that she need not lock you in her palms to care for you

8.

fight the fear that keeps the quiet salted

that has kept this page dry

Fight the stationary silence

The way its nothing

Washes over your body

Like warm wax

comfortable it its restriction

10.

stop saving space in your heart for people who have no desire or conviction

those who are worthy will show up

will find you themselves

stop leaving cookie crumbs like maps in your wake

those who you have to entice will not stay

be your most devoted lover

do not let another year be written in fear of being forgotten

or left,

alone

9.

always leave a part of you to be made

tomorrow