My father is a 5’10” brown skinned prophet
He speaks history bedtime stories
Recites distant time lines like family birthdays
Genealogies of ancient Hawaiian kings like they were his kin
he is cultural knowledge in collegiate skins
a phd in yesterdays but too many tomorrows have passed
and we live in a world where we only think about today and not past
Jonathan kay kamakawiwoole osorio is too much Hawaiian to count quantum
Too much love to hold
he is my father and my hero
but my father has forgotten his own grandparents middle names
Forgotten what color thread god used to sew him together with
And I am beginning to wonder how my whitewashed fingertips will pick up the pieces if my fathers own palms have named them forgotten
And when those palms are buried
Lifeline facing god
Tangled in tattered roots
Will mine remember how to fold into prayers and
will his voice still answer through soil
Will my father still be a teacher when he is truly speechless?
And how much will die with him
Will he leave only regret for me to remember questions too tongued tied to speak
And tears I cant seem to turn into anything resembling remembrance
Will my own fathers death be in vain
At my hand, The flame broken and no torch left to light
At whose fault will the torch be lost
its been only 230 years since contact
230 years since the last time our 2000 lined creation chant was sung in full
our kumulipo the genealogy of our existence
but we've already lost connection with our own grandparents
what happened to the ones forgotten before them
the ones who shaped my heart from their rib cages
i want to taste the tears in their names
want to trace their souls into my vocal chords so that i can feel related again
Because My history is breaking
Held together only marginally by cultural sovereignty
Only the few who care that
Our roots cannot remember themselves
Cannot remember how to dance if we don’t chant for them
And will not sing unless we are listening
And we, only speak hawaiian in empty classroom. from textbooks
and we fear our American accents
soo much that our tongues feel too foreign in our own mouths we dont dare speak out loud
so we can’t even remember our own parents names
and who will care to remember mine if I don’t teach them?
i want to teach my future children
how to spell family with my middle name- Heolimeleikalnai
how to hold love with Kamakawiwo'ole
how to taste culture in the Kumulipo
please
do not forget me
my mana
do not forget my soul
my father
Kamakawiwo'ole
who could not forget his own
Leialoha
we have failed you and forgotten the ones before
so do not forget whats left
cuz this is all we have
you wont find our roots online
we have no dances or chants if we have no history
just rants
no roots
just tears
this is all i have of our family history
and now its yours
O Elroy Thomas Leialoha Osorio he kane
o Clara Ku’ulei Kay he wahine
Noho pu laua a hanau ia o Jonathan Kamakawiwoole Kay Osorio he kane
O Jonathan Kay Kamakawiwoole Osorio he kane
o mary carol dun he wahine
Noho pu laua a hanau ia o Jamaica Heolimeleikalani Osorio he wahine
do not forget us
mai poina
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