Such a simple disruption
When you say home
And I am not at all sure
What that even means anymore
Such a transformation
When you realize
Your whole orientation
To aina
To self
Has changed
All in the
Shadow of a mountain
You were so recently a stranger to
And now
What aina have forgotten you
What oceans and ridgelines
No longer hold the sacred song of your name
In your absence
What of you is lost forever
In your abandonment
When you left to protect
What you couldn’t afford to lose
Did you know
That the wahi pana that raised you
Fed you
Grew you in her waters
Would have to pay the price of your forgetting
How that weight would be a debt you could never pay back
What is this trauma
Of knowing
The precarity or your own personhood
That at any moment you could become
Estranged from your self
That you might even already be so
Will you ever recover
Will you ever be ready
To face a mirror you don’t even recognize
Anymore
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