Day 900: procrastination

today feels like a hurdle
like the last step over the hill
like there are only 100 tomorrow left on this countdown
and then what?
how does reaching a number show you anything other than
you ability to remain unmoved
to be stubborn in the face of laziness
i wonder
if these line will only show a lack of inventiveness
as desire not to stray too far outside my own comfort
and yet here they are
900 days
100 more to go
until i'm back at the same place i've been 3 times before
asking myslef if its time to stop
time to reflect
look back instead of beyond
something about me is too afraid to understand the significance of all of this
i'll save the reflection for another day
maybe tomorrow