Day 750: goodnight

i know i am unstable
but my body is sturdy
rigid
hard in places you wouldnt expect
softer in the others
i can cradle your chest in mine til morning
i will break myself into being the perfect mold
for you
even when the arthritic in me is screaming
i will lay under you head
and hold you until morning
too afraid to move
after you fall asleep

if you told me my hands were soft
i woudlnt believe if
if you asked me to trace the lines on your body
id burn ever callouses from my body
just so you wouldnt feel a hit on its vibration on your skin when i lay my hands on you
i want nothing yo be left to chance