Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Day 771: like the movies

i didnt want the sun to come up this morning
because i know what the new day would mean
so i told you
sometimes
we can only see the light but nothing spectacular
maybe we wont watch your last day begin like the curtains been called
i wonder
how much of this will be remembered
knowing that my love is the kind found in bodies
not in oceans

so please do not mistake me for a promise
as much as i may want to be
know that my kiss
is nothing more
than a black hold where ill hold your taste
along with the secrets that slip out of you lips like laughter
like the smile i can feel forming in the way your back touches my chest
these are the moments i remember embodied
remind me
that love
in me
only stays for a day
or two
that as much as i want to just settle and stay
everything about me is a wave
coming and going
i wonder how empty the sea must feel
always being pulled away

you see sometimes
we are the broken, and sometimes we are the careless
sometimes my hands are empty
and cold waiting for your body
so i can warm myself into you
and sometimes
i am distance
i am silence
i am walking away
sometimes i am the crack crash and crumble of it all
but today
i do not leave
just start the car
say goodnight
i do not wrap my arms around you
because i do not want to remember letting go
knowing i will have to
knowing
that there will be no one here tomorrow
that staying
is not the problem
and going
will never bring me answers

1 comment:

  1. "i wonder how empty the sea must feel
    always being pulled away"

    gahhhh!!!

    "i do not wrap my arms around you
    because i do not want to remember letting go"

    that line reminds me of why I don't tell my ex I love her anymore. I believe we speak things into existence, my be I can ignore it out of existence. {Stupid idea, but I'll try anything at the moment.}

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