Day 18: Puzzles

ive learned

loneliness only comes when there are no hearts in reach to strangle

and we play chess with our miss matched hearts like hograwts children

just waiting to be dismembered

but ive been wondering

if the ending comes too soon

will you still remember me

or will you suffocate my face from your thoughts

give me no room to foster

do i deserve any better than that

i've never been the mess before

i've definitely been broken

never the cause

always the effect

and the only comfort i take in distance is the promise that i dont have to look into shattered eyelids too soon to know the effects of my own actions

i love you

and loved you all the way through every mistake and misplaced attention

but i dont know how to hold my owns hands in this

dont know how to feel less alone and broken when there are oceans between us

mocking our static movements

i'd like to strangle the shoreline

in hopes that the breathlessness will bring me some sort of closure

or closer

either way

take my hands away for a few days

force then to your hips and pelvis

rather than heart for once

im not sure if i know anything about puzzle pieces

other than how to tear them apart.